Wasted time

Even though I know very well how time is very valuable, I still continue to waste time. Yesterday night, after my tennis lesson with my friend, I should have gone back to work right after I had dinner. But instead, I got drawn into my downloads, tv and buring dvds. Sometimes, I want to cry out to my other self. WHAT IS WRONG WITH U?

And this morning, I was watching wimdbledon from 11:30am till 1pm. Then at 1pm, i didn't want to leave until i finish skimming thru another series, "Healing Hands 2". I just wonder why i waste so much time idling in doing nothing. My work just piles up.

I guess it is as what my partner said. I have been in my comfort zone for too long. I need to start shaking things up.

I felt like i have fallen into a deep dark hold and as I try to climb back out of the hole, I can't seem to find a foot hold anywhere. As I try to despartely hold on to something, I felt my life slipping away with time wasted.