Frustration

Do you ever feel frustrated to a point where you could not find release? It is not the lack of friends to vent your anger with but what if the very thing that you are frustrated about has to do with them? What if the frustration is a secret desire, a vile purely selfish desire where sharing such a thought or desire will make your friend think less of you? Or what if the thought or desire is something that you want to keep silent to all your friends? Something that you did not want to share with your friends?

I didn't have such sinister desires or such secret thoughts. However, I do feel frustrated on myself and what my friend did. Yesterday night, I eagerly wanted to get to know a friend that one of my best friend introduced to me. My best friend sparked enough interest for me to seriously consider her. Being too emotionally undiscipline, my desire of wanting to know more about her revealed too much of my true intention and therefore causing the opposite effect. She became cautious and also created the situation where I have become her wimp. I have given the control of the relationship to her instead of holding on to some of my thoughts. With my many different dealings with the gender of the opposite sex, I have found that being mysterious in certain things and only hinting wants are the most effective route. To create interest without the other knowing is the best route to go.

In future dealings with her and other people, I will have to be cautious. I have to show interest but at the same time remain mysterious to create interest in the other.

Sickness

For most of last week, I was struck down by sickness and not wanting to infect anybody else at work, I chose to stay away from everyone. Looking at all the symtons, I self-diagnosted myself to have the stomach flu and at its height, I was seating in the washroom all morning and was suffering from dehydration. I didn't see the doctor because my doctor is of a peculiar sort where he believes that letting the body heal itself with no help from outside medicine is the best solution. For a simple stomach flu, he would have just told me to get the medicine which I have taken and that would be it. He would then say if anything worst happens, come back and see me. So I didn't see any point in dragging my weak legs out of my house and driving all the way to see him.

After recovering and reflecting back on my sickness, I was once again reminded at how fragile our body is. Perhaps it is not that our body is weaker, maybe it is due to the virus and bacteria being stronger. Or perhaps it is the way we exploit our mother nature, destroying the very place we live in that makes our body more susceptiable to sickness. I do not know the true cause of this. However, what I do know is my friend from Shanghai has be sick for 3 months and he tells me that even his whole family is sick for almost as long.

So to everyone out there, please take care of yourself. Health is the greatest wealth that we can ever have.

Time goes by too quickly

Do any of you feel that time just passes by very quickly? There never seem to have enough time for everything that a person wanted to do. It seems that between sleep, work, friends, family and hobbies, you can only do so much. I wish I had that magic clock that Hermione Granger in Harry Potter has or any time stopping device that will allow me to have more time. I am not asking for much but maybe just for 1 hour every day to just give me enough time to think things though for the day before starting time again. Or just 30 minutes extra for me to write this blog everyday will be nice.

However, life is nothing like that. It is all real time. Every second or minute or hour you don't use or take advanatage of, it will be gone forever. There is no way to pause like a DVD player and rewind. Go back and use the hour again.

Ending on this note, to all the friends that I might have neglected, please forgive me. I can only do so much. :)

The Dish always taste better on another Table

The dish always taste better on another Table? Or another person's something always seems better? Or there are any number of manner in which to illustrate the same idea. This human tendency to want what other people want is inevitably inherited from our ancestry. Just that some people has more of this tendency than others.

I am writing about this because lately, I have been reminded how some of us and myself included have this urge to think like that. I am reminded of a story that was sent to me by one of my friend.

An Angel was sent to earth to fullfill wishes for people. One time, the angel encounted a rich man with a beautiful wife who lives in a big house with lots of friends. The angel looked at this man and thought for a moment, the angel then with a wave of her magic took away everything the man ever had and left. The man after losing everything became very sad. After two weeks, the angel came back and gave everything back to him. The man then became very happy for the rest of his life and thanked the angel.

This story may sound stupid to some of you but it is an important story to keep in mind. Whenever, you believe that what other people have is better than what you have, think about this story and you won't feel this way anymore.

Just some food for thought :) Learn to appriciate what you have and not what others have. Be content with yourself and live happily. Jealousy is the root of many evils!!

An Inspiration

An inspiration about human relationships (any type) came to me today and to summarize I came up with this:

Those who find fault in others should first find fault in themselves. What do you think?

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